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boundlessly) wrote2021-02-28 10:59 pm
boundlessly) wrote2021-02-28 10:59 pm
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writing goals 2021
it's literally the end of february so this ~goals~ list is pretty late but oh well. 2/12 months of the year isn't that late imo
towards the end of 2020 and coming into 2021, i really wanted to push myself again as a fic writer. i know it's just something i do for fun but every now and then i get bursts of motivation to just write but also to be better at writing. a combination of losing momentum after publishing a work that i personally worked really hard on, and the way my work life drained me of energy into the second half of 2019 and all through 2020 (ouch, the pandemic) really hit me where it hurt fic-wise.
the last fic i published was in may 2019 (my yveseul are our hearts still in the same place?) and after that i fizzled out from writing. i had a pretty bare-bones draft of the second chapter started when i published the first chapter, but i think the strong momentum i had while writing it drained me. i was really motivated to put it out there because a.) i had the idea in my head for so long so i really wanted to write it b.) i was in a group chat of other loona writers who gave me a lot of encouragement and feedback! and c.) to add to the slowly growing yveseul tag since they're one of my top ships. unfortunately the draft still sits in my google drive gathering dust. i did open it and added ~100 words to it a couple of weeks ago, but nothing substantial. anyway, the point of this anecdote was to say that i lost a lot of momentum and had a lack of energy to finish a work.
i say finish, because i started a lot of drafts from may 2019 to now, but nothing ever gets anywhere.
the summer & fall of last year was a break from fic-reading, too. i'm not sure why this happened but i think with life being very busy for me (got promoted in 2019 as a store manager at work and was basically thrown under the retail bus constantly until i resigned) that i just didn't feel like looking through ao3 at all. fast forward to like... this past september or october? i started reading again, and came across sooo many wonderful finds. like i'm incredibly blessed to live in the same time as these amazing writers. (may make a recommendation? favorites? type of entry in the future)
now that itch to write has come back because i've been inspired by these authors. i'm not really sure how long this will last because i easily lose focus and have spurts of writing bouts, rather than consistently writing throughout the year... but i want to try and change that.
so! 3 goals i want to fulfill by december 2021.
if you're one of my mutuals reading this please hold me accountable for these goals i set for myself. kick my ass. also maybe some encouragement or kind words? i remember how good i felt being in that looner writers group chat in 2019 and how everyone's encouragement and feedback was so helpful to me. i don't really have anything like that anymore these days. i'm not even sure who i can really talk to about my fic stuff lmao TT
not sure how to end this so... this is the end!
towards the end of 2020 and coming into 2021, i really wanted to push myself again as a fic writer. i know it's just something i do for fun but every now and then i get bursts of motivation to just write but also to be better at writing. a combination of losing momentum after publishing a work that i personally worked really hard on, and the way my work life drained me of energy into the second half of 2019 and all through 2020 (ouch, the pandemic) really hit me where it hurt fic-wise.
the last fic i published was in may 2019 (my yveseul are our hearts still in the same place?) and after that i fizzled out from writing. i had a pretty bare-bones draft of the second chapter started when i published the first chapter, but i think the strong momentum i had while writing it drained me. i was really motivated to put it out there because a.) i had the idea in my head for so long so i really wanted to write it b.) i was in a group chat of other loona writers who gave me a lot of encouragement and feedback! and c.) to add to the slowly growing yveseul tag since they're one of my top ships. unfortunately the draft still sits in my google drive gathering dust. i did open it and added ~100 words to it a couple of weeks ago, but nothing substantial. anyway, the point of this anecdote was to say that i lost a lot of momentum and had a lack of energy to finish a work.
i say finish, because i started a lot of drafts from may 2019 to now, but nothing ever gets anywhere.
the summer & fall of last year was a break from fic-reading, too. i'm not sure why this happened but i think with life being very busy for me (got promoted in 2019 as a store manager at work and was basically thrown under the retail bus constantly until i resigned) that i just didn't feel like looking through ao3 at all. fast forward to like... this past september or october? i started reading again, and came across sooo many wonderful finds. like i'm incredibly blessed to live in the same time as these amazing writers. (may make a recommendation? favorites? type of entry in the future)
now that itch to write has come back because i've been inspired by these authors. i'm not really sure how long this will last because i easily lose focus and have spurts of writing bouts, rather than consistently writing throughout the year... but i want to try and change that.
so! 3 goals i want to fulfill by december 2021.
- write 1 fic for a new fandom
- finish at least 3 existing drafts
- join one fic fest/exchange/organized thing
my main fandom to read and write since prst disbanded has been loona, and i feel most comfortable writing about them. but i think of challenging myself to branching out, even if it's just for that one time. not sure what that would be yet. maybe not another kpop group, but i've had a couple of drafts for fe3h started...
my biggest weakness (not just as a writer but in general) is the inability to work on something over time. if i don't finish a task in one session then it's basically over for me. also i've come to realize that maybe this is one of the biggest reasons i lack a sense of accomplishment because i never... do anything to feel accomplished about lol. this was originally going to be finishing 2 existing drafts, but i posted it's a piece of cake to call you mine in january (hyerim) and will count it as the first of three.
note to self: this is going to be separate from writing 1 fic from a new fandom so in total, hopefully i can post at least 4 finished works this year
i completely bombed ggjukebox and still feel incredibly guilty about it. not because i didn't end up posting by the deadline but because i just didn't feel like i produced a work that i was proud of and it kind of paralyzed me. i normally don't let something like that stop me from joining in other things but i really couldn't bring myself to sign up for some of the things i saw floating around (namely director's cut & ggflashfic). i'm going to try again and hold myself more accountable next time.
if you're one of my mutuals reading this please hold me accountable for these goals i set for myself. kick my ass. also maybe some encouragement or kind words? i remember how good i felt being in that looner writers group chat in 2019 and how everyone's encouragement and feedback was so helpful to me. i don't really have anything like that anymore these days. i'm not even sure who i can really talk to about my fic stuff lmao TT
not sure how to end this so... this is the end!
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i've been mulling over making a list of fics/snippets of works i've felt very moved by and i'm afraid it would get really long... but then i think it's more for my own benefit than wanting to show off some amazing writing i've seen lately. it will probably happen sooner than later lol
yes i think that a challenge will do me some good in finding others to talk to; i've become really closed off to (twt) fandom after deciding to remain priv for the rest of eternity >< recently i looked back at my last twt acc and saw how much interaction and feedback i got from posting my work, it was kind of strange to see. like that used to happen to me?? now i'm still trying to navigate the fine line between being open to new mutuals/followers and still keeping to a small bubble...
thank you again, it felt really nice to read your comment TT